I really had no idea. I mean, I totally knew that I would definitely miss you, but frankly, I have never been one to miss people very much. I miss you though. I miss every single thing about you. I miss texting you all day. I miss being wrapped in your arms. I miss kissing you. I feel like my heart is with you in Italy and it doesn’t feel right at all that it should be so far away. I want to get out of work and cuddle up in your bed and hug your pillow as tightly as I can and pretend that I am really hugging you.

I was texting Taylor that she needs to read this book that I am currently reading, which is excellent, and I typed the words “a lot” in the text and thought of you because the night you first said you loved me you had said you liked me a lot to which I asked if it was a whole parking lot.

Gosh, I really miss you, Angelo. It is ridiculous. I check facebook so often waiting to see if you have been on and messaged me or if maybe I can catch you on there again. I keep my phone close to me at all times in case you text me from Damian’s phone. I am like a stupid, sad, annoying girl that I want to tell to get over it becasue, come on, it is ridiculous to miss someone so much, but I really just cannot help it. You haven’t left my mind for one second. You’re in my dreams even. I cannot wait to see you and talk to you again. I want to hear everything about Italy, every detail. Maybe I just want to hear you talking. haha. Also, I wish you were here because I just realized today that I am going to be twenty and it is scary and I am going to be old and not a kid anymore, but I know that you would assure me that twenty isn’t bad and I would believe you and be more excited than sad like I am now. I think only you could really do that. I love you, Angelo. :)